KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!!!!



01. Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?

Of course. ^_^

02. Would you do meth if it was legalized?

Absolutely.. NOT! -_-

03. Abortion: for or against it?

I'm against it.... But I also understand that it isn't my body. It's the woman's choice to do it or not and I believe that no other man, or woman, should have the right to interfere with that.

04. Do you think a country would fail with a female president?

I think it depends on the female in question. Though I think it'd be interesting none the least.

05. Do you believe in the death penalty?

Absolutely.

06. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?

Yeah. It isn't a hard drug. It helps mellow people out. Plus I think it'd be a good cash crop... weed. xD

07. Are you for or against premarital sex?

Whatever happens, happens. I'm for it as long as protection is used to prevent crotch fruit being produced when the premarital sex is done as a one time thing.

08. Do you believe in God?

Yes, I believe in God. I also believe in other gods, spirits, and mythical being. Do I worship any of them? No.

09. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

YES! Love knows no bounds and though marriage is something that lets the country know you and your partner together as one. It's still nice to know same sex couples can say, "Hey, our union is recognized by the *insert country*".

10. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?

Absolutely. If you're going to come into another country you need go through the country the right way LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! I don't care really care who it is. It could be American's moving to Mexico illegally or some other country people doing. It is considered wrong and not be done. -_-

11. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?

Absolutely. If she's responsible enough to have sex then she should be made responsible for the life she brought into this world. As well as the boy that helped.

12. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?

Now? No... The UK has had right all along by having their drinking age as it should. If the USA did it now. Many, MANY, 18 year olds would be getting drunk of their asses.

13. Should the war in Iraq be called off?

YES! I don't even remember what started this but Obama should definitely withdraw the troops. -_-

14. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?

I don't really know where I am on that... If I was at a bad place in life where I was unable to move, see, and/or hear anything then I would want help ending my life. But the thought of helping someone die makes me hurt inside... alot. :/ I'd do it but I wouldn't like it.

15. Do you believe in spanking your children?

Yes. There is a difference in spanking and beating a child. Do I think children should be spanked at every opportunity? NO! Spanking should be used rarely and only as a deterrent from doing extremely bad things.

16. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?

If it was mine or the persons flag, yes. All a flag is is fabric. The idea behind the flag still goes on in peoples hearts.

17. Who do you think would (have) make/made a better president? McCain or Obama?

I don't know since McCain didn't get voted for. Obama won and that's that. *shrugs*

18. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

Not really. I'll be the judge of myself unless I ask to be judged.... But you are more than welcome to comment/judge me. ^_^ <3

Homophobia means:

* I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

* I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

* I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

* We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

* I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

* I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

* I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

* I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

* We are the couple who had the Realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

* I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

* I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

* I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

* I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

* I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

* I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

* I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

* I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

* I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

* I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.



Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

So many have had to live with these specters hanging over them - help us make the hate stop

Well, here lately I've been having this weird reoccurring dream that has made me awaken early in the morning every-time it ends.  Not only that but whatever I was feeling in the dream carried over to my body when I awoke.  Take this time for instance.  In my dream I cried, drooled, and my body went heavy/numb and when I woke up I still had tears in my eyes, drool down my cheek and on my pillow, and my body felt heavy while I had troubles breathing.

For anyone that likes reading into the meanings of dreams here it is for you:

I'm at a large beach house of a Asian man that has a son and queue (I don't know how it is spelled but it is sounds like "q" and "ay" as in hay.) gen user.  Apparently the owner is a collector old art/pottery.  His son is a boy of 10 to 12 and dressed like a young school boy.  The queue gen guy dresses in traditional Chinese clothing and has his hair tied up in long pony tail that he drapes over his right shoulder.  He gives me the feelings of someone that I can't trust so I typically avoid him at all cost.  There is also one thing that always shows up outside of the house, usually sitting on a letdown gate of a forest green Chevy truck.  This thing is tall, lanky figure that looks male and is dressed in a black double-breasted suit tuxedo and black dress shoes.  Its face is the thing that bugs me the most.  The face is perfectly round and the colour of a brown paper bag that you would get after shopping.  Its eyes are these large empty sockets and that have a faint yellow glow in the center.  The mouth is always long with large toothy grin.  The teeth are the typical white triangles drawn by children or seen on cartoon characters with very sharp teeth.  Whenever this figure is near the air around me becomes heavy and it becomes hard for me to breathe or move but I always end up looking outside to see it.  When I see it my eyes tear up and I begin close all the doors and windows to keep it out but as soon as I look away from it and then look back it is gone but the feelings of fear, anger, sadness, and panic worsen.  I'll turn around and it always be behind me sitting on a piece of furniture.
This time, I'm at the guy's house watching old vacation videos of the owner.  Most of the videos are of him surfing or something like that in stormy weather.  The video ends and I get up and leave the room I'm in and walk into a hallway that has four doorways.  The doorway furthest away leads outside, one leads to the bedroom of the father and son, and the other leads to some stairs that go up to the queue gen's room.  The air around me immediately feels heavy as I step into the hallway and as I turn my head to look out the open door that goes outside I'm already breathing hard through my mouth and beginning to sweat.  The figure is sitting there and raises an arm to point at me with a bony finger.  I jump into the bedroom and slam the door shut by leaning my whole body against it and look around.  I see the kid sitting on the floor watching a television that is blurry and fuzzy and tell him to get up and run and hide somewhere but he doesn't even acknowledge me being there.  I see a movement out of the corner of my eye and lose feeling in legs.  My legs give out from under me and fall to the floor as I am looking the figure in its eyes.  I start crying as I try to remain conscious in the dream and the harder I try the worse my body hurts and the more I start to cry and drool as lose feeling of my face.  I blank out for a second in dream but come back to so I get up and look around.  The kid is still sitting there so I go over to him and he immediately grabs my wrist surprising hard for a young boy and turns to look at me with the face of the figure and tells me to watch the tele show with him.  I twist my arm as hard as I can out of his grip and for some reason run up to the queue gen guy.  He looks at me with a odd grin and tells me that I need to practice the ways of queue and leans over some octogonal shaped boards and blue/green shiny pebbles to pick something up....

At that point I awoke to tears on my face and pillow along with drool coming out my mouth and quite a pool of it on my pillow.

Tags: dreams
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Leaves' Eyes

          Ok, I'm one of those people that always trys to be happy, optimistic, go-lucky, kind hearted, a shoulder to cry on, and a sympathic ear.  But here lately I've been like "Meh, I'm tired of this shit. -_-"  This morning while I was waiting on my ride to show up I realized how screwed up my life was because....1.  I have no drivers linence......2.  My job sucks and I'm getting really screwed on the amount of money I'm getting.....3.  It seems I have more psychosies than someone I know. *even though I already knew that*.....4.  No matter how much I try to change who I am I'll always be a shy loser....5.  Even though I'm a loner at heart it seems I have a hard time living alone.....
        If anyone out there has any ideas on how to help me....I'd appreciate it.

Current Location: McDonald's
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: None

Ok, it 1:40 AM and I can't sleep so I thought I'd update my LJ with just some stuff about me in hope that I might et tired again. Instead of typing sentences about myself I'm just going to list stuff about me. 


-Lots of blood makes me light headed 
-Although I'm American my grasp of the language still sucks 
-Love watching anime 
-Love reading manga 
-Yaoi and Yuri fan 
-Is 19
-Is going to college 
-Likes to meditate 
-20% shy, 30% brave, 30% fake, and 20% optimistic 
-Wish I could start over 
-Loves the cold 
-Can't sleep without a fan blowing on him 
-Doesn't like coke as much as Dasani water 
-Love the Boys and Girls Club but hates working for them 
-Loves to take the personality quizes on the net to pass the time 
-Loves MMORPG's
-Wants to be a moderator 
-Misses Bid For Power the Quake 3 mod. 
-Wonders if he will continue to forget everything in his past 

Well that's all that I can of right now. Thanks and laters.

Current Location: Bed
Current Mood: Hopes he can go to sleep
Current Music: David Bowie's "Within You"